Fox won’t show himself
a beginner, I have to be a beginning all over again
A flash of Fox’s tail, gone, that way
What does a beginner do? Follow.
into dark cool woods
lie down in the leaf litter
clear a place in the leaves,
touch bare earth
small seedlings send rootlets through me
Fox circles around me
I am one of the seedlings
pale green 4-lobed newleaf
I am the leaf
the 4 lobes an intimate part of my body
I try to ask the question I’ve been holding since I started
I want to…
My words are little kalanchoe leaflets falling in waves from the edges of the 4-lobed leaf
my words are not sound, they are the sprinkling of new sprout plantlets
How do I make a practice of this? How do I journey regularly? How do I arrange my life so I can do this regularly?
During the workday? I start planning, strategizing… during the workday?
Do you really mean this? Yes. 2:00.
But I have meetings at 2.
On those days, 1pm.
I’m trying to plan, judge, work it in, feasibilities, solutions.
“Go,” says Fox. Done.
I leave the journey.